My church, Hope for Life, here in Calgary is listening to a series of sermons by Andy Stanley. The theme of these talks is comparison. And I have to say that I do a lot of this. When I think back on thoughts I had as I compared my single, single parenting, under the poverty line, overweight, house-cleaning, home-schooling, “survival-jobbing” life to those of others, I always felt “less than” .
This is not to say that my life was awful – because it wasn’t. It was great (for the most part – as most everyone’s life is) and we had lots of fun. Looking back on it, there’s not much I’d change – except the envy part. That I do regret. I know that when envy creeps into my relationships, they don’t thrive. They falter. And I’ve been blessed with many special friends, that have enriched my life in so many ways.
What I’m learning now, and trying to practice daily – is the art of looking in at myself and UP to my heavenly Abba who simply loves me. And has a plan for my life that isn’t the plan He has for anyone else. Envy and comparsion lead me down the path of discouragement, when I so want to be encouraged and to encourage others. I also want to move forward in my life, instead of hanging back because I might not be good enough.
That’s where God is speaking to me just now, and maybe someone else is feeling the same way. So here’s a link to “The Comparison Trap” and I hope it helps. (I”ll also need it for future reference when I stumble into old thinking.
His mercies are new every morning, afternoon and evening – every moment of my day.